Pfff… If I tune into what I truly long for, right now…

Then I want more time. Space in my head. To close the books in the evening, to leave work at work. No more working on weekends. Free weekends. Free Friday nights. To unplug. To de-stress. To do fun things. To have the energy to do fun things. To feel inner calm again. To feel energized. To feel alive again. To enjoy life again. It can be different. It has to be different. I don’t want to go on like this. I can’t go on like this.

The bigger picture. What I long for in the long run: I want to be that strong, smart, powerful, humane, feminine leader — because I know she’s already inside me. I want to be a role model for my daughter and all those high-potential young women, to show them that yes, you can be successful and live a high-quality life. You can be smart and strategic, and still set clear boundaries. I see myself leading the organization with success — making it more human, more sustainable, more profitable, and economically smarter. And still… with more satisfied people, more engagement, more talent nurtured and developed. I know it: I need to own my achievements more, not just highlight what my team has done. If I want to succeed and rise to the top, I need to show my results to my leaders. That way I can be seen, appreciated, supported, promoted — and emulated.

Bottom line? I want to use my talents and energy in the right way, in a meaningful and sustainable way — for my company, my environment, and the world.